My last post was extremely dull because I had to re-write a summary of my depression and I didn’t feel up to including all the details.
This time I’ll just try to focus on one thing. Today’s mood? Sure. Today was the last day of my freshman year, not very exciting. It wasn’t like 8th grade when I was saying bye to people I had known for 10 full years. Even with a full year at this school, I didn’t really like anyone. I got along with people just fine, I always do. I fit into any crowd because of my many interests and I hate to say it, but the fact that I know so much about anything that might come up in conversation or I can at least relate to it. So to correct yesterday’s misleading post, I have social anxiety but it doesn’t really affect me that much. I can handle it all very well, especially when I got comfortable with certain friends. And that’s another thing, I didn’t really relate to the people at school like I do with my good friends from my old school. I really like the emo/gothic scene and the indie scene. And by emo I’m not just referring to the people who cut, as long as they’re into the culture. Same with indie, they don’t have to smoke dope and protest against GMOs and eating meat. The issue with that is there was hardly anyone at that school interested in either of those cultural backgrounds. That in itself is an issue. (not sure if I included this but I’m a male.) On the other hand, I can’t stand jocks and/or preps. They drive me insane sometimes, at least the ones at school. Seeing a group of teenage girls take a group picture while squealing or a group of teenage guys just being loud punks in class with no regard for anyone but themselves really annoys me. And I’m far from a hateful person. I try my hardest to keep “hate” out of my vocabulary when thinking or talking about people. I try to accept and understand everything and everyone. I’m a very tolerant person when it comes to things like this. A school full of just hippies, just jocks, or any group would just be ridiculous. I see how everyone interacts to make a society but I don’t think that excuses immaturity, which is what gets at me.
Well I’ll shut up for today, that was mostly about my opinions not how I am personally but I’ll get to that soon.